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Here are some pictures I found online that I believe show my gender in some way or another. My gender is also me so it just shows me I guess.

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a tiny german doll of a hedgehog named Mucki

This is a picture from google. Eventually I will replace it with a picture of my own doll. A while ago, I went to a doll convention in northern maryland. It was a christmas convention and I waltzed around with my boyfriend and one of my best friends.

I saw this doll of Mucki Hedgehog and picked it up with extreme delight. I thought it kind of looked like me. I loved her dirty red dress, small plaid apron, strong widow's peak, beady black eyes, and olive skin tone. My friends and I laughed about how this doll really had the same stlye as me (except with a shaven face).

I did not end up getting it, but I mourned for weeks about how I should've. My poor boyfriend had to listen to me say Mucki Hedgehog at least a hundred times.

Then, Christmas came around and my boyfriend and I opened our gifts together. Much to my suprise, in my gift was THE Mucki Hedgehog! Turns out, he had noticed how much I liked it within the first week and bought the doll. Now, it stis in a place of honour in my studio and I gaze at her while I work.

For the record, I don't know much about the Mecki Hedgehog universe she is from, but I did find this webpage explaining some of the basics.

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toy monkey wears a oversized mink stole

This image comes from the winning and losing instagram page. I am obsessed with this toy monkey.

I feel like this image hits the perfect median of glitz and glamour with a goofy simple face. Also, the gentle widow's peak doesn't hurt when it comes to making a monkey feel like me.

I will also say, for the record, I am a major monkey fan. I have a sockmonkey collection from when I was little. Might make a shrine for it at some point. I also have other monkey themed stuffed animals. I also have decided my fursona would be some kind of monkey with a widow's peak. They have always been a favorite animal of mine, even though I am too nervous to say it aloud.

Also, off topic, but I used to know a girl on monkey twitter? It was like twitter for people who pretended to be monkeys. So she would go on there and pretend to be an orangutang (or some other monkey) and post sad things. Like "monkey is all alone" or "everyone is mean to monkey". It was so melodramatic and also iconic. She never told us how she was feeling but we knew the monkey would tell us. It was a weird and unforgettable situation.

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This is the painting Melancolìa by Fernando Botero in 1989.

This is one of my favorite paintings of all time. I have debated getting this printed and framed for my wall many times. First of all, the person depicted is just so beautiful. I love how round Botero draws people. They always look so gentle and so kind.

I think I cannot describe this painting perfectly, but Kevin of flickr describes it well.

"Melancholy" depicts a man dressed as a woman, observing his make-up in a hand mirror. Botero's work examines all aspects of society, in the case, exploring the loneliness of a man involved in activities condemned in his society and the church. The most intriguing aspect of this image, however, is the reflection in the mirror. It is not the reflection of the model, but a self-portrait of the artist, observing this melancholy from an unsual angle.

Just beautiful, no? It is so nice to see a painting on transgender issues from before 2010. Especially one so tenderly portrayed. Not only that, the person in the painting kind of looks like me. It's nice. I know it is supposed to show the sadness, and it does, but it also brings me so much joy to see someone so beautiful.

At one point, I found a book of his paintings at an antique store. To this day, I regret not buying it.

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A femme and a masc looking at each other. The masc says careful! I'm not a man. The femme says that's ok, i'm not a woman!

I saw this image on pinterest a while ago. I have yet to find a source. The thing is, it makes me smile and laugh. I feel like the "that's okay I'm not a woman" is a situation I land in a lot. I used to date someone where we had a dynamic like this and it was great fun until it wasn't.

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